Of course we all know this, yet I find myself always measuring how well I do based on perfection. For example, I had great energy and excitement about actually starting & sticking to this blog-yet I haven’t done anything since my initial post. I’ve been consumed with work, life, wedding planning etc. But as I flew back from Spokane last week I thought of the blog and the reasons why I wanted to do it.
As my fiancé and I get closer to the wedding date, my checklists grow and my 30th birthday looms closer. I am reminded of why I wanted to start this blog-I want to appreciate and reflect on my life-not just check things off a list or wait for the end result of work. Without the journey, there would be no final destination to enjoy. And just because this experiment hasn’t gone perfectly or the way I envisioned doesn’t mean I failed-I am not perfect. AND while I know that on some level, it doesn’t change the fact that many times I strive for perfection and am disappointed when I don’t meet my high expectations. Being okay with imperfection is my new focus.
My fiancé often reminds me of this-I both appreciate him for it and get annoyed at the same time. When I get disappointed or frustrated with other people or a situation, he’ll say to me “just because it isn’t done according to your standards doesn’t mean it’s wrong.” That is so true, yet so hard to live by sometimes. With that realization, I’ve been trying to focus on two things:
1. Everyone has their own standards
2. Just because I aim for perfection, doesn’t mean that is the right way and doesn’t mean others have to
Both ideas lead me back to my conclusion, I am not perfect, and that is okay. That is the reality of life. As I go into the remainder of the week I try to take that with me and forgive myself for the times when I don’t check everything off the list or do things perfectly.
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